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I wish Protestants would stop using the term Immaculate Conception. It's peculiarly Catholic doctrine and they don't know what it means. It sounds good but they're really just perpetuating the confusion.

I also wish Supernatural had come up with a different word for what they call purgatory. Purgatory is a real word. It has a long history and a well-defined meaning. The place they're talking about is not it. So far as I can tell, their purgatory is purely an invention for the show--given that the monsters who go there don't exist--so they could have made up a name for it rather than appropriating an unrelated word.

These things don't offend me as a Catholic. They offend me as a student of the English language.

The atmospheric pressure is changing. It's killing my sinuses and I want to go to bed. This is the only time I still miss Steve. But I don't miss being lifted at arm's length.

There was another dust-up with the arch-nemesis this morning. He got all petty about the amount of stuff I had cluttering up the counter in "his" bathroom. (A bottle of body wash, a bottle of hair oil, a razor and a box of replacement blades.) I was taking the dogs out and found my things in a box of trash he'd gathered up and left on the shower chair in the hall.

He said of course I could put the important stuff back in the bathroom, but where? Not on the counter. He just cleaned it! And the medicine cabinet is too shallow and the shelves too close together, and he just cleaned the windowsill, too, and his stuff is under the sink, but I can put it anywhere else if I just tell him where!

I assumed it was a rhetorical question. He did suggest that, since I use those things so rarely, I should just leave them on the chair. In the hall. That gets knocked over at least twice a week by me or the dogs (or Russell, in the dark).

That seemed to be the one last humiliation that it was still possible to avoid, so I took my stuff to my room and am trying to figure out a way to transport it back and forth easily enough that Mark won't get pissed off every single time I take a shower. Or worse, put it back in the bathroom (where it belongs) so I can pick it all out of the trash again in a couple weeks.

In less cranky news, stamps came today so I'm going to mail holiday cards tomorrow. It'll be a good project while I wait for Tammy. This week I'm going to ask her to do the stuff I felt too guilty to ask for last week, since I felt too guilty to ask anyone else, either.

There were two Discover magazines in the mail. I just subscribed a few weeks ago and recently got the November issue. Today I got December and January/February. I forgot they do that, use up as many of the issues you've paid for as they can with ones already printed. It's cost-saving without being a complete ripoff. At least to me. I like missing out on as few as possible.

Sort of on a whim, I subscribed to Mother Jones yesterday. I wasn't even sure what it was until I saw it on Amazon. If asked, I'd have guessed newspaper. I've seen it sourced in a lot of really interesting articles on the web and their information generally holds up. I'm hoping it's less pretentious than The New Yorker. The a-n makes me read some of the articles and explain them to him. He only knows what about half the words mean. It takes forever.

(Off, crankypants! Get back!)

Hours later, my headache is mostly gone and there is promise of food soon. Not food that I love, but certainly edible and nutritious food. If Ranger steals another pork chop right off the broiler pan, I'll try to get a picture.
little_tristan: (Writer Snail)
The air in the house is so hot and dry, it's contributing to a new eye infection. Contributing because it's mostly my fault for rubbing it so compulsively the other night. Should have used the drops instead. Luckily I got a refill on the antibiotic/analgesic ointment last time and never opened it.

Mark worked Thursday through Saturday. They got almost everything done. I think they're going to finish this Saturday. But he got Sunday off. We watched Resident Evil on dvd. He'd never seen it before. Then I went to write and he joined me to watch streaming SPN on my computer.

It's the first time he's ever sat with me while I wrote. It's so happymaking that he's actually supportive enough to not comment on all the action-packed man-snuggling. He says he doesn't read over my shoulder, but he does.

He didn't like my calculating and posting the word count. He thinks competitive writing will interfere with what I do naturally. I told him if that was true, I would still be writing instead of posting the word count and playing FarmVille until the last episode finished. It's cute that he cares, but he doesn't understand. Sort of like when I'm hanging around watching him work. Except my work is more boring. There wasn't even any soldering.

Okay, I haven't really done anything else. I finished reading Scarlett Fever and now the library wants it back. But I want to keep it long enough to use it for quotes in the [profile] oddlittlecat discussion. Maybe I'll write my comments today.

The library wants Children of the Resistance, too, but I just started it. It's making me cry. Almost everything makes me cry right now. I'm not sure if it's seasonal or if it's just having my emotions so close to the surface while writing.

New stories are always like that. They come fresh from the emotional center of my brain and the door is wide open until it's finished. Well, a little longer. It's hard to get closed again. That's probably good. If it hadn't been open a crack for the rewrite of The Dancer, the new one wouldn't have been able to escape. It just made such a mess in there getting loose. Now I'm sobbing over Criminal Minds four times a day.

It's weird that I'm close to half-way through and still have no clue about the title. They should have told me by now. They keep whispering about a play on the word "Mass", as in the Catholic service, but I'm not listening. It's too predictable. Jimmy can do better. He's also suggested State of Grace, which has a nice romantic ring, but I still think he's being lazy.

I'm going to do some Christmas shopping and give him time to think.
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Watching Supernatural while writing and waiting for Tammy. New SPN frustrates me so much, wanting Sam and Dean to get over their shit and be happy and go kill monsters as the awesome team they are. Old episodes remind me how great that was. I'm watching The Usual Suspects right now. (Netflix streaming! Woot!) They don't spend very much time on screen together at all, almost none, but they're still working as a team at all times. It's a beautiful thing.

I think I'm going to finish The Dancer soon. I know for sure two scenes that I want to write, one of them the final, and it shouldn't take long to get there. Maybe a week or ten days. So I'll need something else to complete the MiniNaNo challenge.

For a long time I've thought that I wouldn't write any new books, just rewrite and repair the ones I've had in mind forever, and then quit. But the other day I got an idea that might be a decent full-length novel. I'd forgotten what it felt like to get a fresh idea and jump all over it. So maybe I'll do that for the rest of the month and see where it goes.

After nearly 18 years of amazingly good health, Mr. Sloane is suddenly on the decline. He doesn't want to eat and is getting steadily wobblier. I think he's having trouble chewing and swallowing, although his teeth seem to be fine. Mark's going to stop at the store on the way home and pick up some kitty-spoiling canned food. Murphy's never liked it much, but now that he doesn't want kitten food anymore, he might've changed his mind. It is a cat's prerogative, after all.
little_tristan: (Supernatural Sam want Cookie)
From [ profile] catyah:

1. Leave a comment to this post!
2. I will give you a letter.
3. Post the names of five fictional characters whose names begin with that letter, and your thoughts on each. The characters can be from books, movies, or TV shows.

Who gave me an S! )


Nov. 17th, 2011 09:19 am
little_tristan: (Rat)
If I'd checked IMDB and noticed that DJ Qualls was guest-starring in last week's Supernatural, I wouldn't be watching it just now.:D
little_tristan: (Writer Snail)
9. Pairings – For each of the fandoms from day two, what are your three favorite pairings to write?

Not all of my fandoms have 3 pairings, but let's see what we can do:

1. Riptide: Murray/Quinlan, Murray/Cody/Nick, Cody/Nick
2. Star Trek Reboot: Scotty/Chekov, Kirk/McCoy. Spock/Uhura
3. Emergency! (crossed with Riptide only): Johnny/Murray, Roy/Joanne
4. The Losers: Cougar/Jensen
5. The Sentinel: Jim/Blair
6. It: Richie/Eddie
7. Supernatural: Sam and Dean (gen)
Rest of the questions this way... )
little_tristan: (Riptide Murray and Quinlan Sweetheart)
3. For each of the fandoms from day two, what were your favorite characters to write?
1. Riptide: In order--Murray, Quinlan, Cody, and Nick
2. Star Trek Reboot: Chekov and Scotty, with background Kirk, McCoy and Uhura
3. Emergency!: Johnny, Roy, Captain Stanley and Chet
4. The Losers: Everyone, with a focus on Cougar and Jensen
5. The Sentinel: Jim and Blair
6. It: Richie and Eddie
7. Supernatural: Sam and Dean

Rest of the questions this way... )
little_tristan: (Writer Snail)
2. Name the fandoms you've written in, and how much you've written in that fandom, and if you still write in it.

1. Riptide: 132 posted; 8 awaiting posting; more being written daily
2. Star Trek Reboot: 9 posted; more on the way
3. Emergency (crossed with Riptide only): 5 posted; 4 awaiting posting; potential for a couple more
4. The Losers: 3 posted; probably finished with the fandom
5. The Sentinel: 2 posted; potential for more
6. It: 1 posted; potential for more
7. Supernatural: 1 posted; occasional fantasies of others.

Rest of the questions this way... )
little_tristan: (Writer Snail)
I got a fic off the lovely and talented [ profile] catyah (read it here), so now I get to play.

The first TEN people to comment get to request that I write a drabble of any pairing/character of their choosing (that I can write). In return, they have to post this in their journal, regardless of their ability level and give it a go.

Fandoms I can write in are: Riptide, The Sentinel, Star Trek: Reboot, Supernatural, and The Losers (movie or comic). Any pairing, but be sure to include a prompt or anything can happen. :D

EDIT: Okay, so none of these are technically drabbles. They range from 200 words to over 500, so I hope more is better. Also, every story had a soundtrack song, for some reason, so those are in parenthesis.
little_tristan: (Sam and Dean Brothers)
Or, why John Winchester is a better father than my arch-nemesis.

For some background, if you're a Supernatural fan, read [ profile] ratherastory's Long Before the Sky Would Open. For some reason, I read the beginning of it when it was first posted and then didn't finish. No idea why. Today I read the rest, so I could read the next in the 'verse. And it still has me in tears. Here's why.

If you didn't read the fic, fourteen year old Dean gets bacterial meningitis. Sam is alone with him while John is on a hunt. It goes the way fics and tv shows do, with John coming back and letting Sam stay at the hospital with him, keeping him out of school so the family can be together. In other words, the right way.

Now when my darling Herr Tanzer was 5 years old, his 3 year old brother got meningitis. The viral kind that's very hard to beat now, and was almost impossible back then, in the early sixties. His brother survived for some reason, after nearly a week in a coma, and is the brilliant, bad tempered, play attending Bruder that I've written about so often. But where, you ask, was Herr during that week?

He was home alone for most of it. There was no money for babysitters, his parents were widely unliked among the neighbors, and five year olds weren't welcome in hospitals back then, unless they were sick. So he watched tv and played with his toys and waited for his parents to pop in for a few minutes a day to change their clothes or try to nap. Occasionally, they even fed him. But mostly he ate peanut butter and cereal that he scrounged for himself.

And one day, about halfway through the week, this happened: His father came and sat him down and told him that his little brother was going to die. Soon. That he would not be allowed into the hospital to say goodbye. That he would, in fact, never see his brother, his only friend, again. And then he left. No one came home again until the next day.

You can offer all kinds of suggestions as to how they could have handled it better, but the fact remains that it was fifty years ago and it doesn't matter what they could have done, or should have done. It only matters what they did, and how it irreparably damaged their older son. Now I think the relationship between the two damaged brothers in my life is the main reason I love Supernatural. It may even be why Herr loves it. Sam and Dean have so much in common with him and Bruder, I think he often sees himself. But their dad? He's no John Winchester. And whatever you think of John's parenting tactic, I'm inclined to think it could have been worse.
little_tristan: (Sam and Dean Brothers)
I'm watching A Very Supernatural Christmas, which is possibly the only tv episode/movie where Christmas gets trashed that doesn't completely depress me. (I can't even watch Gremlins.) I love young Sam and Dean--Dean telling Sam the truth about their family and Sam giving Dean the pendent that he'll wear forever. (Or, you know.) But the part that always gets me is when Dean says he wants to celebrate Christmas because it's his last one, and Sam says that's why he can't. He can't enjoy Christmas "knowing that next year you'll be dead". Normally that line makes me cry, but this time, it made me think.

When Sam died, Dean went nuts and sold his soul to get him back. He admits that he did for himself, that he can't live without Sam, no matter how badly Sam has to hurt because of it. He was desperate and he did what he had to do. Sam's trying to get him out of the deal and Dean's trying to stop him for Sam's sake. So that line really struck me this time, because it made me wonder what it would be like if their roles were reversed. If Sam was going to be dead in a few months and they knew it, and Dean couldn't save him. I wonder how Dean would feel, how he would handle that. He expects Sam to be calm and accepting, but that isn't what he would do. We already saw him make a deal with the devil when Sam was dead. What would he do if that death was part of the near, inevitable future?

I know he'd try to make a deal to switch places, and it might be accepted, since we know they need him in hell, but assuming they don't, and they wouldn't deal, what next? Would he just keep working cases and acting like everything was okay, the way he expects Sam to? Personally, I think there's a good chance he'd kill himself, deliberately or in a kamikaze mission, just so he wouldn't have to wait it out. Anybody else have any ideas?
little_tristan: (Sam iz Confuzzled)
The fact that DVDs from tv series can't be purchased individually. I've been watching Supernatural all the way through in preparation for tomorrow's premier, and I just got screwed. I have no idea what happened, but the fourth disc of season one is suddenly so damaged it's unplayable. It won't even read on the computer, which is pretty extreme. It skips and sticks during Nightmare, and I can't watch The Benders (one of my favorites) or Shadows at all. So what am I supposed to do here, buy the entire season again? It's $20 for six discs (on Amazon), so why I can't I pay $3.50 for one? You'd think, given how easy illegal copying is, they'd be interested in giving us more options to avoid it.
little_tristan: (Penny Says Explode)
I tried to watch the documentary Invisible Girlfriend and failed. But it was still illuminating in that I think I now understand what people mean by the term trigger. It gets thrown around a lot on the internet, and people seem to be triggered by all sorts of things, from men kissing men to other people dog earing pages of book . But watching a bi-polar paranoid schizophrenic talk about his literal relationship with Joan of Arc, write love letters to another woman and then ridicule her in what he must have thought were clever terms (but were really just cruel and insultingly stupid), for referring to them as love letters, and say that psych meds are what really make people sick (because he was fine before he took the meds and he's fine now), just made me want to kill. When he got to blaming his problems on his sobbing children (sorry, "bratty-ass kids"), it almost wasn't enough to shove the disc back into the Netflix envelope. I would have much preferred something more along the lines of skeet shooting. So, I guess I've dated way too many mentally ill people, because it was the familiarity of his cruelty and egotism that killed my sympathy. Sure he's sick, but I still hate him for it. At least I can now say with certainty what my trigger is.
More meandering over here... )
little_tristan: (Sam & Dean Dock)
I'm working my way through the series again and I just saw A Very Supernatural Christmas, ... )
little_tristan: (Writer Snail)
Today I finally started uploading stuff to AO3. It's a bad habit of mine, to start an account somewhere and then wait a really long time to use it (like this one, opened summer of '06, first post March of '09). Turns out uploading in a pain in the ass, since you actually have to type and stuff, but I'm working on it. Right now I just have the Riptide Protective Custody fics and my other fandoms up (TS, SPN, ST), but I hope to finish the Riptides this week.

There's nothing there that isn't also here, somewhere, but if you want to find it all together, my user name is der_tanzer. Comments are always welcome.

SPN Meme

May. 14th, 2010 07:50 am
little_tristan: (sam spoon)
When you see this message, post in your journal with your favorite Season 5 SPN quote.

Since the finale has aired, I can use a new quote:

"Hey, assbutt!"
little_tristan: (Sam & Dean Dock)
Those two are psychotically, irrationally, erotically codependent on each other.

That's what I needed to hear. Thank you, Kripke. My faith is restored.
little_tristan: (Sam & Dean Dock)
I'm pretty much talking to myself here, but it's my journal and that's how I think best, so feel free to skip this. I'm watching the whole series, beginning to end, four to six eps a day, and all kinds of things are coming to my attention. It really was more Sam oriented in the beginning. I read something somewhere, no doubt on LJ, where a Deangirl was complaining about how he was treated in the first season. Well, she said throughout the series, but I think she was in the middle of the first season and hadn't seen how it changed. Examples included Dean appearing stupid, Sam talking down to him, and a line from Dead in the Water (one of my season 1 faves) where Dean says he loves kids and Sam says he doesn't even know any kids and challenges him to name 3, which he can't do. Apparently, this was an unforgivable insult.

Well, they did place more emphasis on Sam's advanced education then, as if it were a good thing. Later on, when Dean ridicules him and calls him a geek, it's obvious that being smart is bad and Sam deserves to be punished. This strikes me as a little bit fake, from the writing side, because Dean is certainly smart enough to see the value of a good researcher, and honest enough to give credit where credit is due. That leads to a whole other can of tangled worms when one tries to unravel the character from the writing. Because they make it look like Dean isn't that smart or honest, by giving him fake things to say. Weird.
Here be spoilers, and deep thoughts... )


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